Nothing really seemed to give me what I wanted until this treatment

I imagined myself as a giant penis launching off from the earth like a spaceship. (Cary Grant, 1962)

"I seemed to be in a world of healthy, chubby little babies' legs and diapers, and smeared in blood, a sort of general menstrual activity taking place. It did not repel me as such thoughts used to." (Cary Grant, 1962)

in the quiet of that room

"We are all unconsciously holding our anus." (Cary Grant)